3 years ago I had my last drink. It wasn’t a big binge and blowout, but I’m not ready to share publicly what the context was.
At the time I was in a “relationship” with a narcissist/psychopath (I put “” because looking back, it definitely wasn’t one and he always said he didn’t believe in relationships but more partnerships. The irony). We were living in Manchester, after having traveled through all of Central America and spent some time in Mexico.
I’m not attached to labels but I mention those words to describe him because there’s a side of me that’s proud of the strength I have. Hence the resilience and wellness coaching.
Truth be told- I’ve been through an inhuman amount of trauma, from a very young age. Compounded, I don’t know how I’m alive.
Where I’m at now in life, I’ve learnt to celebrate myself and not stay attached to anything, anyone or any place. Everything is temporary, and the only constant is change. When it comes to sobriety, it’s not even a question for me to drink again. I’ve shifted into a complete new identity and timeline whereby alcohol isn’t part of it. It’s behind me and I’m not afraid to say it.
I used to be scared of saying things like that because of other people’s beliefs. Till I learnt to listen to God, and myself. I believe I wasn’t put on this planet to be an addict or alcoholic, nor stick with the term “in recovery”.
I choose to believe it’s something I had to overcome to show people it is possible.
I promise you even up to a year ago I thought I’d never let go of this label, but today I’m truly free, and it’s not cause of energetic work or spirituality, it’s NLP, psychology, and reprogramming/rewiring the brain. It’s going deep into plant medicine, attending seminars and conferences, spending hours in meditation and talking to experts. It’s through research and experience, not just theory.
If any of the above resonated, you know where to find me.
Blessings!
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